I’m broken. Like super broken. You are too. We all are. No matter how hard we try to be perfect, we can’t be. It is impossible. It is not who we are.
It doesn’t matter how I look, who my friends are, what clothes I wear, what sport I play or don’t play, or what my Instagram feed looks like; I’m broken.
Everything I just listed is an outward thing. These are the things that people see. Sometimes I wish life was that simple. I wish I was what everybody else could see, because it’s a lot easier to try to perfect our outward appearance compared to inward. But, the truth of the matter is that most of who we are is on the inside. Our heart, our thoughts, and our desires is what the Lord sees.
Sometimes my head is so filled with sin and lies and doubt. And I feel so isolated and alone. So “Un-fixable.” I would be so ashamed if I was turned inside out. If you all could truly see what goes on in my head, I would want to run and hide. Maybe you feel that way too. But there is this really cool thing that makes all this go away: grace. The Lord says,
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)
All of these weaknesses we were just talking about, all those things that make us broken, the Lord takes away when he says, “GRACE!” Grace is undeserved forgiveness, and God is abounding in it! He doesn’t care how broken we are, he loves us just the same! God sees our “weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and difficulties” (2 Corinthians 12:10) and proclaims his power through us like light shining through the broken pieces of our lives. He uses our brokenness as a beacon for his glory. Pretty dang cool if you ask me.
Because of God’s grace, I no longer have to be ashamed of my brokenness. I actually get to celebrate it!
I’m broken, but that’s okay. I know you don’t expect perfection. No matter how hard I try to chase after you, I fall short. Thank you for having grace for me and working in the midst of my darkness to shine your bright and glorious light. I know I no longer have to be ashamed of my brokenness, because you use it for your kingdom. Thank you for calling me your daughter. I wouldn’t want to be anyone else. I love you with all I am.
“For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10)